We seem to have these periods of balance then slowly the scales of fate seem to tip, weighing heavier on the dark side usually resulting in a few life lessons being picked up, virtues such as patience and understanding come to mind. In 1992 I received a small card for Christmas from the priest at our Church. On the back is a simple prayer,  you may have heard it before.

'God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Grant me the Courage to change the things I can and Wisdom to know the difference'.

That little card has been carried wallet after wallet for almost 20 years. I no longer go to church, however I do believe in something, of which I don't care to disclose at this stage, however that prayer has been a comfort in many of the darker times in my life. Of late life seems like a constant struggle, there's a  thick fog blocking the light, a light that could make everything 'better'. I'm running in self preservation mode, just barely making it through each week. Nothing comes easy, with the ever present pressures from family,  misunderstandings, money, lack of money, work, car troubles, bills and social expectations. No wonder I like getting out for a fish or a hunt. On top of all this I remind myself that it could be much worse. There are people in much more dire situations, how dare I be so selfish. I do try to just suck it up and get on with it, especially when I know there is nothing I can do to alter some situations.

Like everything in nature there are ebbs and flows. I remind myself, this time will pass and a brighter period will present itself.

I think I might go for a long walk this weekend.